My A to Z list

A. Make a list of 5 things that are
in reach.
My Purse, my headsets, a tube of face cream, my headband

B. What is your favourite
holiday?
Easter.

C. What is your fashion style?
Urban

D. What’s your occupation?
In the process of looking for a job

E. What do you hear right now?
The television in the sitting room

F. Who was the last person you
hugged?
I can’t remember

G. What random song just
popped in your head now?
Solution-Hillsong

H. What did you do today?
Its just 9a.m

I. What was the last text message
you received?
From Kiwis,asking how I am.

J. What websites do you always
visit when you go online?
Twitter, facebook, wordpress,tumblr,the nervous breakdown, the single woman

K. What is your next big planned
purchase?
I don’t know yet…maybe a book by Paulo Coelho

L. If you could afford to go
anywhere in the world, where
would you go?
Bali

M. Where do you see yourself in
5 years?
Pursuing a degree in journalism

N. Where’s your tattoo/Where
would you like a tattoo?
Somewhere on my body…

O. What are you doing this
weekend?
Not sure yet

P. If you could play any musical
instrument, which one would
you play?
Guitar

Q. What’s the one thing you need
the most now?
For my sister to recover and come back home..

R. Are you a creeper?
What’s a creeper?

S. What is your dream job?
To work as a columnist

T. What’s the last good movie you
saw?
I don’t watch movies a lot but the last good tv series I saw was Castle Season One

U. What’s your favourite quote?
‘Attitude determines altitude’

V. What is your favourite colour?
White and bright colors

W. Give us three styling tips that
always work for you:
Am not really into fashion…

X. Coffee or tea?
Coffee

Y. What do you love to do when it
is drizzling?
Watch tv or read or sleep

Z. What inspires you?
Life

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Life Right Now

Its been a week
Of me, seeing the one I love
Weak
In a state of helplessness
Watching her wither away
Like a dry flower
On a hot day
Watching her struggle to do
The things she’s been doing all her life
Watching her detest the food she
Once savored
How do things change in a split second?
One minute you’re laughing,
The next
You’re holding back a dam of tears
‘Don’t cry’
Am told
‘You need to be strong’
‘I’m trying’
I say
‘I really am’

Pillows flooded with tears
And inaudible conversations
Fighting to have faith
To believe everything happens for
A reason
But why is this happening?
Tell me why?

Life is weird
One minute
Reality is where I am
The next
Its like am dreaming
Hearing words I never thought
I would ever hear
Spending every waking hour
Wondering
Asking questions
Waking up
And expecting the worst

On my knees
My face wet with tears
Eyes looking up to heaven
Saying nothing at all
But I know God knows
And he hears
He never sleeps
It is well.
My God is Mighty to save

*** get well to my one and only young Sister who is Sick right now and will be going for an operation on tuesday ** please pray for her!! 😦

Music

This is a poem that my friend Joseph and collaborated on last year!

Nelly:

The summer breeze
Reminds me of the music in my soul
Warm, quiet and flowing with ease
A sweet sound that leaves my ears
yearning for more
It is my haven on a blue day
Invigorating my spirit, body and mind
Keeping the world at bay
And going on an adventure with me to the other side

Joseph:

My soul is led on to another place
where
the sun keeps shining when all around
me are heavy clouds
My secret escape, free for all yet free
from all,
Butterflies rocking my stomach each
time,
My lonely heart within the moment is
filled with the warmth of
companionship
I can’t help but be glad that I’ve been
kissed by the sweet, tender and
magical
lips of music

Nelly:

I am captivated by the rhythm
In love with its purity
In music i find an identity without
shame
And in it i am relieved of my insanity
i speak my heart in its lyrics
live my life in step with the beat
it lifts me up with its sopranos and lets
me down easy with its bass

Joseph:

Rhythm and pure sweet melody are
the
color of beautiful life,
that only the eyes of my ears can see,
my heart sighs and can feel all,
like tiny bits of sandy grain at the
beach,
each note makes the scenery beautiful,
reminding me to forget all the sorrow
that this world can boast of,
Even in light of the deepest darkness,
music makes my heart see all that can
be
and is well,
oh what a blissful thought,
that all can be well despite the pain
and
hurt,
all i can be is grateful that i had a
chance
to listen to the melody one more time.

Writer’s Block

Firstly…

WHAT IS WRITER’S BLOCK?

Dictionary.com describes writers block
as ‘a TEMPORARY condition in which a
writer finds it impossible to proceed
with the writing of a novel, play or
other work’.

From that definition, i understand that
writers block is temporary and in my
world, ‘temporary = less than a
month’. It should not last longer than
that. Period.

From my angle, i would describe
writers block as ‘a period of time that
ranges from 1 hour to 1 month in
which a writer feels lazy to write’. In
my understanding,writers write. It
doesn’t matter what. If you are a
writer,you have to write. In the same
way, if you are a teacher,you have to
teach.

Why 1 hour?
I personally set aside at most 1 hour
everyday to write. Doesn’t matter
what. I just know that during that
hour, i have to write something even if
its lyrics to a song that i like.

CAUSES of Writers block

1. Lack of inspiration- i don’t agree. As
a writer,i believe i can derive
inspiration from anything. From that
boring sunday i lay around doing
nothing to that moment i hear birds
singing, rain on my window and
everything seems to be in sync.

2. Distraction-choosing to write at time
you are supposed to be doing
something else. You might succeed at
first but along the way,something has
to give and i’m guessing it’s the
writing. In so doing,you might lose
sight of the big picture of what you’re
writing and if that happens then
everything goes KABOOM…

3. Feeling paralyzed by previous
success-it’s kind of expected of human
beings to exist in a state of
progression. If you write a good piece
today,you are expected to write a
better piece the next day. I have to
admit, i have experienced this
sometimes. I would write something
that i feel is the best i can ever write
and so this keeps me from writing
something new for fear of failing but i
know i’m not there yet and so i try and
try and i am still trying.

4. Physical illness- this is
understandable.

5. End of a relationship- this shouldn’t
cause one to deflect from their passion
as writing is and can be a release for
all that pain you are keeping closed in.
In fact, talking about it helps you heal
that much faster.

6. Financial pressures.

7. Depression-maybe this can pass off
as a legit cause but it depends on how
severe the depression is. If all your
life’s work is in some way
damaged,lets say in a fire then
YES,you have every right to be
depressed.

8. Sometimes writers feel what they
are writing seems to be beyond their
ability. I’ll tell you what i always tell
myself; ‘it’s all in the mind’. Have the
right approach towards life.

Remedy -write! If you fail just keep
trying.

Beauty And The Beast ( It Must Have Been True Love)

Beauty and the Beast has been my favorite fairy tale from time immemorial. At first it was because I saw myself in Belle (somehow), she loved reading and she never quite fit in. That’s how I feel sometimes, not that I am complaining; no!! I love it because I love being different 🙂

I am sure we have all watched or read this wonderful story. As I have grown up and watched it over and over again, I have noticed something that never caught my attention before. BEAUTY FELL IN LOVE WITH A BEAST!! That little fact made me love it even more because it showed something that society is clearly lacking. Loving someone for who they are. I believe love has to go beyond looks though I am not disputing the fact that this is easier said than done. Our society is so centered on outward beauty that people are dying in the process of seeking perfection (like that can be attained). We have people committing suicide because they think or have been told they are not beautiful. This needs and has to come to an end.

I am reminded of a show I recently started watching and this is, Dating In The Dark. Basically, two people get to know each other in the dark (they never see how the other looks till the final day). The funny thing is, I have seen people hit it off whilst in the dark room; they would get along well and always have something to talk about but the moment the lights come on, they walk away claiming the other person is not their type. It makes me wonder, is love about looks or personality?

However, we should not be guilted into dating someone we are not physically attracted to! Remember, if someone doesn’t want you, it doesn’t mean someone else won’t! There are 7 billion people in the world, there surely has got to be somebody for everyone!!

On that note, I conclude by saying: make somebdy feel beautiful today! 🙂

Happiness, Love and Beauty

I have been told, I have to create my own happiness
Before
I can make somebody else happy
I have been told I have to love myself
Before I can love somebody else
Or let somebody else love me
I have been told I have to believe I am beautiful
Before
I believe it when somebody else tells me

I am happy
I love myself
I am beautiful

Happiness baffles me
I choose to be happy
Laugh more
Enjoy life more
Take a few risks
Write some more
Maybe deviate a little from my style
Explore other ventures
Accept the place I am in
Be grateful for I am blessed
Not lucky
And it works
For days
I can’t stop laughing
Life is great
I enjoy what am writing
Personalize the place I am in
I am more blessed
Then I hear a knock on my door
*knock* *knock* *knock*
I get no reply when I ask who it is
So I open the day
Maybe the person is shy
But sadness creeps in
And happiness leaves through the back door
Its like I woke up
And am surrounded by weeping
I must be at a funeral!
How did things change so fast?

Love intrigues me
Is it an emotion?
An action?
A thought?
A myth?
A fantasy?
Whatever it is
I love myself
Completely and truly
With no room for leakage
I feel my love for me
My actions towards me symbolize how much I care
I feel it when I think of me
if you say you love me
I will not question you
Maybe I will
Maybe I won’t
But I will believe you
Its hard to explain love
I guess that makes it
An emotion

The thing about beauty is
It fades
Its not perfect
There’s always something amiss
A big nose
Small eyes
Little hands
Long feet
Short hair
In short
Outer beauty is vanity
Inner beauty is forever
I have accepted me
For better and
For worse
In sickness
And in health
For richer
And for poor
Till the day I die a natural death
Poverty won’t make me think less of myself
Sickness is a common denominator amongst us all
So getting sick won’t make me kill myself
I am more than just a pretty face
Adorned with makeup
I am more than just a body
Dressed up in clothes

I am a human being
In pursuit of happiness
Which is found in loving yourself first
And
Enhanced by you accepting yourself
With your imperfections