Life Right Now

Its been a week
Of me, seeing the one I love
Weak
In a state of helplessness
Watching her wither away
Like a dry flower
On a hot day
Watching her struggle to do
The things she’s been doing all her life
Watching her detest the food she
Once savored
How do things change in a split second?
One minute you’re laughing,
The next
You’re holding back a dam of tears
‘Don’t cry’
Am told
‘You need to be strong’
‘I’m trying’
I say
‘I really am’

Pillows flooded with tears
And inaudible conversations
Fighting to have faith
To believe everything happens for
A reason
But why is this happening?
Tell me why?

Life is weird
One minute
Reality is where I am
The next
Its like am dreaming
Hearing words I never thought
I would ever hear
Spending every waking hour
Wondering
Asking questions
Waking up
And expecting the worst

On my knees
My face wet with tears
Eyes looking up to heaven
Saying nothing at all
But I know God knows
And he hears
He never sleeps
It is well.
My God is Mighty to save

*** get well to my one and only young Sister who is Sick right now and will be going for an operation on tuesday ** please pray for her!! 😦

Music

This is a poem that my friend Joseph and collaborated on last year!

Nelly:

The summer breeze
Reminds me of the music in my soul
Warm, quiet and flowing with ease
A sweet sound that leaves my ears
yearning for more
It is my haven on a blue day
Invigorating my spirit, body and mind
Keeping the world at bay
And going on an adventure with me to the other side

Joseph:

My soul is led on to another place
where
the sun keeps shining when all around
me are heavy clouds
My secret escape, free for all yet free
from all,
Butterflies rocking my stomach each
time,
My lonely heart within the moment is
filled with the warmth of
companionship
I can’t help but be glad that I’ve been
kissed by the sweet, tender and
magical
lips of music

Nelly:

I am captivated by the rhythm
In love with its purity
In music i find an identity without
shame
And in it i am relieved of my insanity
i speak my heart in its lyrics
live my life in step with the beat
it lifts me up with its sopranos and lets
me down easy with its bass

Joseph:

Rhythm and pure sweet melody are
the
color of beautiful life,
that only the eyes of my ears can see,
my heart sighs and can feel all,
like tiny bits of sandy grain at the
beach,
each note makes the scenery beautiful,
reminding me to forget all the sorrow
that this world can boast of,
Even in light of the deepest darkness,
music makes my heart see all that can
be
and is well,
oh what a blissful thought,
that all can be well despite the pain
and
hurt,
all i can be is grateful that i had a
chance
to listen to the melody one more time.

Coward

A hero
A friend
Is what she saw

A liar
A villain
Is what he was

The closer she drew
To happiness
The further he drove her
In the wrong direction

She looked away
Ignored the bumps
Love does that
Makes you blind
His words were
Refreshing
An oasis in a desert
Sunlight on a stormy day
Laughter amidst pain

One starry night
Light shone
The curtain fell
Gasps were heard
As the truth was revealed
All he was
Was a coward

H.I.M

The smell of
His clothes

The smirk in
His stare

The arrogance of
His being

The kindness
He possesses

The truth
He spoke

The romance
He showed

His breath on
My skin

His lips
On
My
Lips
Eyes
Nose
Hands
Forehead
Stomach

His hands
That held my
Face
And spoke of love
I miss this and more

His hands
That hurt my body

His legs
That kicked me

His voice
That spewed insults
At me

His eyes
That looked down on me

His lips
That spit on me

His touch
Poisoned my skin

His love
Dragging me deeper
And deeper
Into a black hole

I let him go
Because of this
And more

A Plea

Help me love
Another
As you do me

Help me see
Another
As you do me

Help me forgive
Another
As you do me

I am human
Ergo I am imperfect
I am human
Ergo I’m selective
Of
Whom I love
Whom I help
Whom I talk to

Lord
Help me be like you
Holy
For that is your wish
Loving
For that is your nature
Forgiving
For that’s who you are
Wise
So as to live a life worth of your love

Lord
May your perfection
Overcome
My imperfection

The Living Dead

We have heard of them
Seen them around
Maybe we even
Know some
The living dead
Alive but dead
Living
With no care
About life
Living
With no care
About their future
Living
Life with no clear direction
Don’t know where
They are going
Or coming from

Tomorrow never comes
They say
But what if it does?
One day
It will be tomorrow
You will be
Alive
Resurrected
And wondering where
Time has gone
This life is
Fragile
And
Short
It can’t be
Taken
For granted
Or lived
Like it is eternal

Wake up
And
Live
A life
Worth remembering