Life Right Now

Its been a week
Of me, seeing the one I love
Weak
In a state of helplessness
Watching her wither away
Like a dry flower
On a hot day
Watching her struggle to do
The things she’s been doing all her life
Watching her detest the food she
Once savored
How do things change in a split second?
One minute you’re laughing,
The next
You’re holding back a dam of tears
‘Don’t cry’
Am told
‘You need to be strong’
‘I’m trying’
I say
‘I really am’

Pillows flooded with tears
And inaudible conversations
Fighting to have faith
To believe everything happens for
A reason
But why is this happening?
Tell me why?

Life is weird
One minute
Reality is where I am
The next
Its like am dreaming
Hearing words I never thought
I would ever hear
Spending every waking hour
Wondering
Asking questions
Waking up
And expecting the worst

On my knees
My face wet with tears
Eyes looking up to heaven
Saying nothing at all
But I know God knows
And he hears
He never sleeps
It is well.
My God is Mighty to save

*** get well to my one and only young Sister who is Sick right now and will be going for an operation on tuesday ** please pray for her!! 😦

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Coward

A hero
A friend
Is what she saw

A liar
A villain
Is what he was

The closer she drew
To happiness
The further he drove her
In the wrong direction

She looked away
Ignored the bumps
Love does that
Makes you blind
His words were
Refreshing
An oasis in a desert
Sunlight on a stormy day
Laughter amidst pain

One starry night
Light shone
The curtain fell
Gasps were heard
As the truth was revealed
All he was
Was a coward

H.I.M

The smell of
His clothes

The smirk in
His stare

The arrogance of
His being

The kindness
He possesses

The truth
He spoke

The romance
He showed

His breath on
My skin

His lips
On
My
Lips
Eyes
Nose
Hands
Forehead
Stomach

His hands
That held my
Face
And spoke of love
I miss this and more

His hands
That hurt my body

His legs
That kicked me

His voice
That spewed insults
At me

His eyes
That looked down on me

His lips
That spit on me

His touch
Poisoned my skin

His love
Dragging me deeper
And deeper
Into a black hole

I let him go
Because of this
And more

The Living Dead

We have heard of them
Seen them around
Maybe we even
Know some
The living dead
Alive but dead
Living
With no care
About life
Living
With no care
About their future
Living
Life with no clear direction
Don’t know where
They are going
Or coming from

Tomorrow never comes
They say
But what if it does?
One day
It will be tomorrow
You will be
Alive
Resurrected
And wondering where
Time has gone
This life is
Fragile
And
Short
It can’t be
Taken
For granted
Or lived
Like it is eternal

Wake up
And
Live
A life
Worth remembering

Disappear

In the hustle of life
I seem to be disappearing
A voice among voices
In need of a breath of life
But nothing is appearing
I am pulled in every direction by the many choices
I face

I am a face among many
Sometimes just another on the street
Just trying to make a dream reality
Piece together this broken life
From a past that has reincarnated into my present
I disappear into the many talents that spring up everyday
Into the many looking for peace
In a war stricken world
Misunderstood by people
So my version of the world is twisted
Tangled
In a web of
Lies
Fame
Success
Pain
Love
Unforgiveness
Hollywood

I disappear into poetry
Into the words I read
Into the worlds I create
I implore you to leave me there
Let me disappear into my world